[rang watches alex for a moment. he thinks about what it's like to believe in something, and that if buzen were here he'd understand alex's drive.
it should have been buzen -- a pulse of grief emanates from him, before he stifles it.]
...Alright.
[he's say 'if you say so' if he was feeling his usual jerkish self, but he won't. he just thinks of matsui in the warehouse and buzen in his hands,]
Make sure not to come too close to Matsui tomorrow, and tell the others to do the same. His emotions are too unstable -- it'll distract you all from the trial.
[ grief is such a painful thing that it makes her lapse into silence for a moment.
and then she's kind of back to being a little indignant. not really at rang. not really at anyone. ]
I don't care. I'm not just going to—avoid him or ignore him. Just because, what, he's miserable? I don't care. I'll be miserable too. I'm... giving him space because you said to. If that's what he wants, fine.
But we're all going to be stuck together tomorrow anyway.
[ she pauses, and gives a little nod. there's some flicker of gratitude. ]
... So have I.
I'll deal with it. It's—better if you deal with it together.
[ although even as she says this there's some uncertainty, because she doesn't really... know what it's like to face it together. what does that mean. ]
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[ but. determination, somehow. ]
But we can do it. We'll still do it.
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it should have been buzen -- a pulse of grief emanates from him, before he stifles it.]
...Alright.
[he's say 'if you say so' if he was feeling his usual jerkish self, but he won't. he just thinks of matsui in the warehouse and buzen in his hands,]
Make sure not to come too close to Matsui tomorrow, and tell the others to do the same. His emotions are too unstable -- it'll distract you all from the trial.
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and then she's kind of back to being a little indignant. not really at rang. not really at anyone. ]
I don't care. I'm not just going to—avoid him or ignore him. Just because, what, he's miserable? I don't care. I'll be miserable too. I'm... giving him space because you said to. If that's what he wants, fine.
But we're all going to be stuck together tomorrow anyway.
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You don't have to ignore him. You can go to him if you want, just not when you want to think.
[grief is so painful, and he thinks alex has had her fair share of it already, but]
It was overwhelming even for me, and I've felt loss before.
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... So have I.
I'll deal with it. It's—better if you deal with it together.
[ although even as she says this there's some uncertainty, because she doesn't really... know what it's like to face it together. what does that mean. ]