... Watching her fight like that... made me get it, a little bit. But she's still a kid. Tough. But a kid. I don't know, maybe that doesn't count for as much here.
And I get wanting to take responsibility more.
[ it's more relatable to her to just want to do everything yourself. ]
She's a kid but... like my loops, she is familiar with multiple story paths, and endings... she carries a heavy burden with her. Has likely lost before.
...It's awful. Terrible that someone should be pushed to erase their own friend but. [ they have done it themselves. and... there's something in being able to do it yourself. ] It was better her than something else. Or even someone else.
[ a noise. her dear friend out of reach, falling away from her. or at the hands of someone that saw him as nothing but an enemy for what he had done. as horrific as a lot of this is, they think there is kindness in dying at the hands of their friend. kindness... and of course, suffering. it's a double-edged sword. ]
[ they may want to say more, but a pig is barreling in from their blindside and rushing past with a squeal. aka, i'm dropping you with a memory as i scurry to raid!!
basic mem notes are "takashi" is the player name, and unlike the other memories shared by Setsu, this one ends with a... rather fuzzy sensation, an obvious fuzzy you can't shake off. it's really weird. ]
[ stares at this memory angrily. setsu we're the same person. did you know that. did you know that we're the same fucking person. which means unfortunately she's not as devastated by this as she should be, because. same hat. and she's fine. so we're fine. surely. ]
... Wait, I don't get it. Why... does it have to work like that?
[ lol. lmao. lolol. haha. hehe. yeah.... yeah. we're fine. definitely. they stay quiet, staring off to the side with an unreadable expression. because of all the memories to share... even though Setsu has told Alex a bit of what their future may be, this more or less solidifies it. rather... what's done-- has been done. ]
...That's just how it works. It's the only way to ensure what happens.. happens.
[ well. yeah. she did kind of think there was an out eventually for setsu. ]
So it's like... what? Every time the loops end and the key has everything it needs, you still just start it over from the beginning? So it's a loop of smaller loops?
[ yeah.... unfortunately, eventually is actually nonexistent as far as they're aware. ]
If I could get all the information and meet the conditions for my own key, I can-- I do have a plan, to be able to escape out of it. It's just... [ ... ] I don't think I'll ever get the last piece of information for my key. It isn't possible with how things are. Not by myself.
I'm going to come to the point where I'll be recycling through loops again, so if I haven't gotten it already... [ it's highly unlikely they ever will. ]
...And, if it's tied to Takashi... [ who is now broken out of the loops? well... they're out of luck. ]
Yeah. I mean, I closed the gate from the inside... and all of them were on the outside. And if the loop is repeating like they say it is, isn't that because I'm inside the gate...?
If that's the case, you getting to where you are sounds predetermined.
[ like with Setsu, to be able to make sure they do not die, they have to pass the key on onto their friend. time is such a concept when it looks back like that. ]
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And I get wanting to take responsibility more.
[ it's more relatable to her to just want to do everything yourself. ]
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...It's awful. Terrible that someone should be pushed to erase their own friend but. [ they have done it themselves. and... there's something in being able to do it yourself. ] It was better her than something else. Or even someone else.
[ a noise. her dear friend out of reach, falling away from her. or at the hands of someone that saw him as nothing but an enemy for what he had done. as horrific as a lot of this is, they think there is kindness in dying at the hands of their friend. kindness... and of course, suffering. it's a double-edged sword. ]
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[ hrmg. ]
I guess I'd want to do it for you guys. If it came to that. But if it were me I'd rather do it myself.
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[ they may want to say more, but a pig is barreling in from their blindside and rushing past with a squeal. aka, i'm dropping you with a memory as i scurry to raid!!
basic mem notes are "takashi" is the player name, and unlike the other memories shared by Setsu, this one ends with a... rather fuzzy sensation, an obvious fuzzy you can't shake off. it's really weird. ]
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... Wait, I don't get it. Why... does it have to work like that?
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...That's just how it works. It's the only way to ensure what happens.. happens.
[ but that's okay. it's just what I have to do. ]
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So it's like... what? Every time the loops end and the key has everything it needs, you still just start it over from the beginning? So it's a loop of smaller loops?
[ WHY ARE WE THE SAME PERSON ]
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If I could get all the information and meet the conditions for my own key, I can-- I do have a plan, to be able to escape out of it. It's just... [ ... ] I don't think I'll ever get the last piece of information for my key. It isn't possible with how things are. Not by myself.
[ basically, they're screwed. ]
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What... is it? What do you need to get it?
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...And, if it's tied to Takashi... [ who is now broken out of the loops? well... they're out of luck. ]
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[ whatever the fuck that means. ]
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[ she is right, yeah. i sure did this to setsu. ]
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At least I can save Takashi and everyone in that universe. They don't have to deal with the Gnosia there.
[ "A Gnosia free world.... wouldn't it be nice if we could find a place like that, Takashi?" ]
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But I get it.
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But, I had already figured if anyone would get it, it'd be you.
[ they really are same person. ]
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[ and one last memory for the road... wao... from 8:27 to 9:42. ]
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..You were able to save them, weren't you? [ her friends. ]
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[ wish that wasn't a question! ]
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That would make some sense I'd say.
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[ ... ]
But they also... made it sound like I'm the one causing the loops...?
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[ like with Setsu, to be able to make sure they do not die, they have to pass the key on onto their friend. time is such a concept when it looks back like that. ]
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[ they wish she could have a future that was different from that. that she could return to her friends. ]
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... But it's fine. It'll be fine. I don't know if I can break the loop, but I'm sure I can do something good. For someone.
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