[ this is a first for them so there's just a feeling of minor confusion on the whole matter. but, when they come into the diner, it at least smells pleasant in here. tasty treats! ] Mmm.. This was about the curse I mentioned, right? During trial.
[ setsu is thinking fried milk that make you moo is normal in alex's world now i guess. ]
It... well, it started on Tuesday. It ended around... Thursday, after I got back from the excursion. [ oofa doofa ] Basically, it made Kazuki and I feel as if we.. had feelings for each other? In the moment, I hadn't questioned it at all. So I didn't even know I was cursed.
[ there's a tinge of guilt because of course they feel bad that someone else was dragged into this curse mess. ] it wasn't until it was over that I realized those feelings weren't real.
I don't know. He was hurt when I didn't recognize him at our return...
[ sometimes you have the mind of a child and you don't recognize anyone except those from the trip. ]
He did check on me after, to apologize, but when I talked about trying to check on the others first to get some info before resting- he blew up again. [ "Who do you even think you're going to help?" this time, there's a brief spike of anger, but it quickly cools down as Setsu sighs. ] ..I know I tend to overwork myself, and I'm trying to do less of that. To let you, Jonas and the others help more.
The problem is he doesn't talk, he just.. argues. Fights with his anger. It's difficult trying to get a proper conversation out of him.
I have no idea how to handle him when he's getting mad at stuff. Because it's not like he just says what he's mad about.
[ which would make it so much easier! she even feels a little impatient just thinking about it. ]
But... Yeah, I know you're used to working kind of alone. It makes sense to be in the habit if you're stuck in a loop... [ a pause, concerned. ] So I really hope you count on us more.
[ exhaustion just bleeds from Setsu, the earlier brief anger so dull in comparison. they're used to dealing with all types of people but kazuki... it's such a drastic change from the first week. ]
...I will. [ it doesn't sound necessarily like a lie, but more of a promise. ] We're a team after all. I shouldn't have tried to do it all by myself. So, I'll be sure to rely on you all a lot more.
[ it is a hard habit to break. it's hard not wanting to do everything they can to protect others, but they understand they won't get far by themselves. however, they know words aren't really something you can rely on, they have to prove it through their actions. ]
[ Setsu really is in the same boat, if they had advice they would be glad to give it but. they're more accustomed to friends and enemies being infected and lying to kill verses a teen boy lashing out angrily. so funny imo. ]
It should be that simple but, it is what it is.
[ takes a moment to think back on trial, remembering Kazuki's attitude towards simon too. ] Though, it feels like he's been sharp with more than just Jonas and I...
[ setsu pointing that out does at least give her pause. in a way it's almost reassuring? if he's just moody with everyone and not just at his team? it doesn't fix the problem, and she wants the problem fixed, but she also thinks...
... some people just aren't good in tense situations. the second she has to actually deal with it again she will be deeply impatient about this, but talking about it from afar, she's understanding. ]
Well... I guess, like, to be fair... This whole situation is really stressful. Just in general, he was probably already pretty strung out before anything happened.
[ it really makes Setsu wonder what kind of connection there is between them all, or if it's just something that was said to spark that moodiness. even so, Setsu wants to ensure they reel back any potential anger. they don't want to lose their cool at him again. once was enough. ]
Mm.. I know his own world dealt with a terrorist group called Adonis, and he had admitted pretty early on that where he's from... everyone has pretty much accepted the idea of dying at any time. [ which, in general, is pretty sad, but Setsu has gotten used to the concept of dying themselves that it makes sense to them. ] But this place is obviously very different in comparison. So it could be everything setting it off.
Yeah, he told me a little about it... I kind of can't even imagine how scary that would be. Like, all the scary stuff we went through was just one night. Imagining a looming threat like that being dragged out is...
[ they nod at that, it is a lot. so there's just a buzz of understanding. ]
I have been as well. But, I'm starting to think at this point I need to just be direct with him and force it out of him. I don't know how well that'll go. But, it's better than letting it fester. I don't want to detriment the team any further.
[ i am happy to say it does work out later, at least. ]
Maybe... If the conflict is with you, I guess that might be better than just drifting. Especially since it's not like we even can totally drift apart. We're teammates...
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[ she will lead the way toward the diner. ]
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[ this is a first for them so there's just a feeling of minor confusion on the whole matter. but, when they come into the diner, it at least smells pleasant in here. tasty treats! ] Mmm.. This was about the curse I mentioned, right? During trial.
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[ high school cafeterias are a lawless land with all kinds of sounds. ]
Yeah—I wanna hear how that went.
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[ setsu is thinking fried milk that make you moo is normal in alex's world now i guess. ]
It... well, it started on Tuesday. It ended around... Thursday, after I got back from the excursion. [ oofa doofa ] Basically, it made Kazuki and I feel as if we.. had feelings for each other? In the moment, I hadn't questioned it at all. So I didn't even know I was cursed.
[ there's a tinge of guilt because of course they feel bad that someone else was dragged into this curse mess. ] it wasn't until it was over that I realized those feelings weren't real.
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But... If you both just got over it as soon as the curse was over, then—why is it even a big deal? I mean, sure, it's a little awkward, but...
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[ sometimes you have the mind of a child and you don't recognize anyone except those from the trip. ]
He did check on me after, to apologize, but when I talked about trying to check on the others first to get some info before resting- he blew up again. [ "Who do you even think you're going to help?" this time, there's a brief spike of anger, but it quickly cools down as Setsu sighs. ] ..I know I tend to overwork myself, and I'm trying to do less of that. To let you, Jonas and the others help more.
The problem is he doesn't talk, he just.. argues. Fights with his anger. It's difficult trying to get a proper conversation out of him.
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[ which would make it so much easier! she even feels a little impatient just thinking about it. ]
But... Yeah, I know you're used to working kind of alone. It makes sense to be in the habit if you're stuck in a loop... [ a pause, concerned. ] So I really hope you count on us more.
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[ exhaustion just bleeds from Setsu, the earlier brief anger so dull in comparison. they're used to dealing with all types of people but kazuki... it's such a drastic change from the first week. ]
...I will. [ it doesn't sound necessarily like a lie, but more of a promise. ] We're a team after all. I shouldn't have tried to do it all by myself. So, I'll be sure to rely on you all a lot more.
[ it is a hard habit to break. it's hard not wanting to do everything they can to protect others, but they understand they won't get far by themselves. however, they know words aren't really something you can rely on, they have to prove it through their actions. ]
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but she does appreciate that setsu is saying they'll try. it means a lot - especially with kazuki being... how he's being. ]
Exactly. That's how simple it should be. [ she's. so impatient that it isn't that simple though. ]
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It should be that simple but, it is what it is.
[ takes a moment to think back on trial, remembering Kazuki's attitude towards simon too. ] Though, it feels like he's been sharp with more than just Jonas and I...
[ which brings More confusion cause ??? why?? ]
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... some people just aren't good in tense situations. the second she has to actually deal with it again she will be deeply impatient about this, but talking about it from afar, she's understanding. ]
Well... I guess, like, to be fair... This whole situation is really stressful. Just in general, he was probably already pretty strung out before anything happened.
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Mm.. I know his own world dealt with a terrorist group called Adonis, and he had admitted pretty early on that where he's from... everyone has pretty much accepted the idea of dying at any time. [ which, in general, is pretty sad, but Setsu has gotten used to the concept of dying themselves that it makes sense to them. ] But this place is obviously very different in comparison. So it could be everything setting it off.
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[ it's a lot. ]
I don't know. I'm trying to just—give him space.
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I have been as well. But, I'm starting to think at this point I need to just be direct with him and force it out of him. I don't know how well that'll go. But, it's better than letting it fester. I don't want to detriment the team any further.
[ i am happy to say it does work out later, at least. ]
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Maybe... If the conflict is with you, I guess that might be better than just drifting. Especially since it's not like we even can totally drift apart. We're teammates...
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We're teammates. [ a more confident feeling, before they lean to gently nudge their sides together. ] We'll get over it together.
[ maybe but setsu doesn't know that. WRAPS THIS THREAD UP SO WE HAVE MORE ]