homophonic: wolfwood

[camena]

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[camena]

... But if you stop being sad it's like it... goes away. It's like it's. Less. How could anyone do that?

[ is she grieving wrong, wanting to grieve forever? ]

[crucifer]

It doesn't have to be. It just... changes.

Acceptance is in the five stages of grief. That doesn't mean you gotta follow it, but I'm just sayin' that it can be a part of it, and that's fine.

You can still remember him.

[camena]

I guess.

It just—nothing's ever gonna be that good again. It'd be weird to convince myself it is.

[crucifer]

Yeah, I get it.

Nothing's ever gonna be the same again without it.

[ ... ]

It ain't like I don't go home because I don't wanna.

It's 'cause I can't. It's like, the Nick they loved is gone. Even if I'm -- [ Gesturing vaguely. ] -- technically here, it's just not the same person they used to and I think.

It's better to let 'em have what they used to think of me than go back the way I am.

[camena]

[ her voice is a bit softer than her usual, more abrasive tones, because she does get that she has limited information here. it's his life, in a whole other world that she doesn't know much about. but... ]

Wouldn't they just learn to love you again?

I would want Michael back even if he were different. If he—I don't know. If he was mean, or suddenly hated me, or never spoke to me again. I'd still want to see him.

[crucifer]

[ ... ]

Even if he wasn't your ace anymore?

If he'd come back an unrecognisable monster?

[camena]

I guess it depends on what you mean by monster. I wouldn't want him to be—trapped, like the ghosts. Like most of him was gone and all that was left was anger or something like that.

But if he was just... different... I'd pick different and alive over dead.