... you're really nice, Al-san. I appreciate that. Even if it's hard to think... I hope that by the end of this, I can at least give you more happy memories than sad ones.
I think you are. People like you a lot - they were thinking fondly of you here in Shibuya too.
[he tilts his head]
I didn't really understand it since they weren't being detailed... but are you going back to something tough after we're done here, Al-san? [a beat] But we don't have to talk about it, if it's too tough.
A lot of people here have—time stuff going on. That week with the pig, we kind of figured that out.
Yes. No...? It's kind of complicated. I... was told I was in a loop. That I was making it loop. And then I did something that made it make sense that I would be in a loop. But it's not like I remember any other loops—even if things are weird in a way where I don't really doubt it.
I think my goal is like... the opposite? I don't know if I can do anything to change my situation, but there are other timelines that I want to, uh, influence or something.
.... well, that's pretty common for humans. It makes sense that you want to change or create things - I think that's an important tendency to have. Otherwise things stay the same too much and stagnation isn't good either.
Is there something you want out of those timelines...?
I want to warn the Alexes and Jonases of the other timelines to not do what we did. Uh, just in case. I have no idea if my messages are going through, but... Radio waves...?
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Oh, Al-san! Hey! It's Buzen, am I the one you wanted to reach or should I get Setsu-san?
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it's obvious even through the blur that he looks surprised at first, before it melts into a perfectly fond smile]
If that's the case, then I feel lucky. Thanks for still thinking of me, Al-san.
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... because... that week was a horribly traumatic time for everyone involved...?
Sorry....
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But because I liked talking to you. So I missed you when you were gone? And I'd think about stuff you'd said, so.
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people here are really kind, huh]
... you're really nice, Al-san. I appreciate that. Even if it's hard to think... I hope that by the end of this, I can at least give you more happy memories than sad ones.
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But I'm trying not to get too caught up in memories one way or the other. Just, um, enjoying my time, you know? Whatever happens after this.
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[he tilts his head]
I didn't really understand it since they weren't being detailed... but are you going back to something tough after we're done here, Al-san? [a beat] But we don't have to talk about it, if it's too tough.
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[ don't just say oh you dumb bitch. anyway moving on. ]
I'm getting better at talking about it, I think? It's just, uh... I'd be going back to a timeloop. Apparently.
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I just went through a bunch of those.
They're rough.
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And I think back home that's kind of the situation I'm going back to, soooo.
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[but anyway he'll frown and look over to her, tilting his head]
... were you aware of it before you came here? Is it something you want to break?
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Yes. No...? It's kind of complicated. I... was told I was in a loop. That I was making it loop. And then I did something that made it make sense that I would be in a loop. But it's not like I remember any other loops—even if things are weird in a way where I don't really doubt it.
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So do me and Matsu, but not quite the same... Weird trend.
[absolutely hilarious trend actually]
Mm... so you're at the heart of the loop, Al-san...? Maybe that means that you'll be able to escape it then...
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What's going on with you and Matsui?
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[a beat, before he realizes that he should at least try to meet her halfway]
... protecting history to save the future kind of time stuff. I don't think I can tell you more than that... I'm sorry, Al-san.
But it's the sort of thing that we were summoned to handle.
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[ he just said he can't tell her more. ]
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[it's fine a few other people know this much so he can at least make things more even]
In our world, that's our mission.
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But every world is different. I think.
[ she sounds so unsure about all of this ]
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Is there something you want out of those timelines...?
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Oh. Uh.
Did... something bad happen?
[a beat]
Still don't have to talk about it if you don't want to...
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