homophonic: ylfa

[camena]

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[camena]

idk either

Has your team seen the latest excursion message?

[honkinbigteeth]

oh
from thursday?
not yet

[but also some threads from friday didnt get very far.]
but its been a busy couple days i think shu or livio would show us

[camena]

Okay. Let me know if no one shows you by next week. I got it from someone who seemed a little anxious to share, so.

Anyway, that would make sense to me. Wanting to get a bunch of points. Like high risk high reward, maybe.

[honkinbigteeth]

ill let you know.
...thanks alex

i could see that but i dont know

[camena]

[ after little delay ]

Simon told me that he'd been falsely accused of murder, back home. I didn't want to put him through that again, even if the evidence felt like it was pointing that way.

[honkinbigteeth]

oh
i didnt know that
but i could see how much he was hurting

[camena]

Yeah it

sucks

being looked at like that. Thought of like that.

[honkinbigteeth]

has that happened to you before?

[camena]

Most people back home don't exactly love me.

[honkinbigteeth]

what???
why?

[camena]

[ there's an even lengthier delay, though she appears to be 'typing' off and on the whole time. ]

Because my brother died.

[honkinbigteeth]

oh
im sorry alex
people blamed you for that?

[camena]

Yeah.

[honkinbigteeth]

i dont know what happened but
i know youre a good person
you dont deserve to feel like youre bad

[camena]

Thanks, Ylfa. That means a lot.

Anyway. I just didn't want to do that to him. idk.

[honkinbigteeth]

i know what you mean
ive had that feeling before too
that no matter what you say no one will believe you arent a monster
i couldnt just watch either

[camena]

No one here sees you that way.

[honkinbigteeth]

i know
its a little weird

[camena]

Probably weirder for you than me. Almost no one here knows about my stuff but

I bet a lot of us know a version of the fairytale? But it's different.

[honkinbigteeth]

what happened to me is really different than most versions
its ok
i know the normal versions
but its less that and more like
i dont know
the people at home were probably a little more scared of me than they needed to be
but only a little

[camena]

I mean you're super tough so respect is one thing

but fear?

[honkinbigteeth]

yes
im strong
but sometimes i also
i do things that just
it really scares me too

[camena]

That can happen. People can slip.

But you can always come back from stuff.

[honkinbigteeth]

do you think so?
i hope so
i guess i agree

[camena]

I know so.

It's just like... Stuff happens. Circumstances can do a lot of the heavy lifting and people can kind of blow up sometimes. Even right now, we're in this insane situation where people can't be at their best.

So it doesn't mean you're not still a good person.