[ it is not comforting to have no idea what someone is feeling when you're used to feeling other people's emotions this week. but that's. fine. she supposes. ]
No, it was uh... It was the canals, this time. By the cathedral.
[ anyway her emotions take a deeper dive into Everything Is Fucking Bad because he reminded her of the lake... so... cooooooool. ]
[there is no visible reaction on rang's face or from his emotions at alex's reaction, as if the pull of her grief barely registers. as if someone else's tumultuous wave has knocked him askew,]
...So that's why.
[alex is wet. AGAIN. rang recalls the last time they talked like this, and decides -- that at least he doesn't have to see buzen. the sole silver lining,
[he thinks if matsui had even the slightest bit of strength to be aware of this at all, that he might be comforted to know that alex had gone all this way to return buzen.
or he would still lash out, paranoid of everyone's kindness. for rang, he's not quite at that level yet, and he's too tired to wonder at everyone's intentions. instead, he thinks of alex who has done her best the last two trials, and decides to believe in what he's seen.
he'll take it carefully from her,]
We'll see what happens. [he could lie and say that they will, but] Personally, I don't know if we'll actually find them tomorrow.
[as if to soften his words, even though it's what he believes,]
But whoever did this won't want to be found. Guifei and D did nothing to cover their tracks -- Guifei had Hikari's coin, and D left T-chan behind so it would raise suspicion towards him.
[rang watches alex for a moment. he thinks about what it's like to believe in something, and that if buzen were here he'd understand alex's drive.
it should have been buzen -- a pulse of grief emanates from him, before he stifles it.]
...Alright.
[he's say 'if you say so' if he was feeling his usual jerkish self, but he won't. he just thinks of matsui in the warehouse and buzen in his hands,]
Make sure not to come too close to Matsui tomorrow, and tell the others to do the same. His emotions are too unstable -- it'll distract you all from the trial.
[ grief is such a painful thing that it makes her lapse into silence for a moment.
and then she's kind of back to being a little indignant. not really at rang. not really at anyone. ]
I don't care. I'm not just going to—avoid him or ignore him. Just because, what, he's miserable? I don't care. I'll be miserable too. I'm... giving him space because you said to. If that's what he wants, fine.
But we're all going to be stuck together tomorrow anyway.
[ she pauses, and gives a little nod. there's some flicker of gratitude. ]
... So have I.
I'll deal with it. It's—better if you deal with it together.
[ although even as she says this there's some uncertainty, because she doesn't really... know what it's like to face it together. what does that mean. ]
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No, it was uh... It was the canals, this time. By the cathedral.
[ anyway her emotions take a deeper dive into Everything Is Fucking Bad because he reminded her of the lake... so... cooooooool. ]
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...So that's why.
[alex is wet. AGAIN. rang recalls the last time they talked like this, and decides -- that at least he doesn't have to see buzen. the sole silver lining,
he holds out his hands,]
Careful that you don't cut yourself.
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I'm fine.
You guys need to be careful. From here on.
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or he would still lash out, paranoid of everyone's kindness. for rang, he's not quite at that level yet, and he's too tired to wonder at everyone's intentions. instead, he thinks of alex who has done her best the last two trials, and decides to believe in what he's seen.
he'll take it carefully from her,]
We'll see what happens. [he could lie and say that they will, but] Personally, I don't know if we'll actually find them tomorrow.
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... What makes you say that?
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[as if to soften his words, even though it's what he believes,]
But whoever did this won't want to be found. Guifei and D did nothing to cover their tracks -- Guifei had Hikari's coin, and D left T-chan behind so it would raise suspicion towards him.
This feels more strategic to me.
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[ but. determination, somehow. ]
But we can do it. We'll still do it.
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it should have been buzen -- a pulse of grief emanates from him, before he stifles it.]
...Alright.
[he's say 'if you say so' if he was feeling his usual jerkish self, but he won't. he just thinks of matsui in the warehouse and buzen in his hands,]
Make sure not to come too close to Matsui tomorrow, and tell the others to do the same. His emotions are too unstable -- it'll distract you all from the trial.
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and then she's kind of back to being a little indignant. not really at rang. not really at anyone. ]
I don't care. I'm not just going to—avoid him or ignore him. Just because, what, he's miserable? I don't care. I'll be miserable too. I'm... giving him space because you said to. If that's what he wants, fine.
But we're all going to be stuck together tomorrow anyway.
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You don't have to ignore him. You can go to him if you want, just not when you want to think.
[grief is so painful, and he thinks alex has had her fair share of it already, but]
It was overwhelming even for me, and I've felt loss before.
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... So have I.
I'll deal with it. It's—better if you deal with it together.
[ although even as she says this there's some uncertainty, because she doesn't really... know what it's like to face it together. what does that mean. ]