And not in the way where people just think they love popular guys because they're good at sports or know how to pretend to be cool. He was just actually cool. And nice. And good at everything.
[ A year ago. Based on the form of the memory, it... sounds like maybe he never got that chance to leave like he wanted. He wonders if this is an assumption he should be able to make, because he feels like asking about it seems a bit too personal. ]
[ He finds it hard to really approach this in a honest way, because in the grand scheme of things, he is the Michael in this equation. Which is... hilarious... given he got adopted out by the Eye of Michael... touches the ground. I'm glad we both got to go 'lmao' at the 'what do you think of when you hear Michael' question on the survey. ]
I'm sorry.
[ That's really all he thinks he can offer, as meaningless as it is. ]
[ He's really bad at comforting, but he is a good listener. ]
Different people got different ways of grieving. Seen it a lot personally -- 'cause I do a lot of services when asked, and a whole lot of 'em tend to be funerals.
Some people can't handle bein' sad for so long. Nobody wants to be. Haven't met a person like that yet.
Nothing's ever gonna be the same again without it.
[ ... ]
It ain't like I don't go home because I don't wanna.
It's 'cause I can't. It's like, the Nick they loved is gone. Even if I'm -- [ Gesturing vaguely. ] -- technically here, it's just not the same person they used to and I think.
It's better to let 'em have what they used to think of me than go back the way I am.
[ her voice is a bit softer than her usual, more abrasive tones, because she does get that she has limited information here. it's his life, in a whole other world that she doesn't know much about. but... ]
Wouldn't they just learn to love you again?
I would want Michael back even if he were different. If he—I don't know. If he was mean, or suddenly hated me, or never spoke to me again. I'd still want to see him.
I guess it depends on what you mean by monster. I wouldn't want him to be—trapped, like the ghosts. Like most of him was gone and all that was left was anger or something like that.
But if he was just... different... I'd pick different and alive over dead.
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And not in the way where people just think they love popular guys because they're good at sports or know how to pretend to be cool. He was just actually cool. And nice. And good at everything.
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Sounds like an ace. Really...
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Yeah. He hated being thought of like that, but... it was true.
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We were best friends. I just... everything would be easier if he were around. I know it would. Everything would be better.
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I'm sorry.
[ That's really all he thinks he can offer, as meaningless as it is. ]
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Sorry. I know no one ever knows what to say about stuff like this. It's—it was a long time ago, so. Whatever.
[ "about a year" is not that long but it's. fine. ]
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You don't gotta get over it just 'cause the world tells you you need to.
Family's important.
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It's just—it broke... Everything. Everyone fell apart over it, and then still just - moved on so quickly. How did they do both?
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Different people got different ways of grieving. Seen it a lot personally -- 'cause I do a lot of services when asked, and a whole lot of 'em tend to be funerals.
Some people can't handle bein' sad for so long. Nobody wants to be. Haven't met a person like that yet.
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[ is she grieving wrong, wanting to grieve forever? ]
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Acceptance is in the five stages of grief. That doesn't mean you gotta follow it, but I'm just sayin' that it can be a part of it, and that's fine.
You can still remember him.
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It just—nothing's ever gonna be that good again. It'd be weird to convince myself it is.
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Nothing's ever gonna be the same again without it.
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It ain't like I don't go home because I don't wanna.
It's 'cause I can't. It's like, the Nick they loved is gone. Even if I'm -- [ Gesturing vaguely. ] -- technically here, it's just not the same person they used to and I think.
It's better to let 'em have what they used to think of me than go back the way I am.
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Wouldn't they just learn to love you again?
I would want Michael back even if he were different. If he—I don't know. If he was mean, or suddenly hated me, or never spoke to me again. I'd still want to see him.
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Even if he wasn't your ace anymore?
If he'd come back an unrecognisable monster?
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But if he was just... different... I'd pick different and alive over dead.