I, uh... don't actually know. I don't remember the loops. I just know that I made a choice and the ghosts say I'm looping and that I have been looping, and... I believe them.
[ Baby girl ... what's with these time-looping teens? And also Kazuki's something about terrorists, neither Wolfwood nor I are sure what is going on there. ]
Me, Vash, and Livio don't remember things the same either. Not that I think... we're in any time loop, things...
[ At least, he sure hopes the hell not. There's a brief thought that's more like a deep drone of pure fear but it gets covered up quick. He shakes his head. ]
There are these—these intercoms that keep showing up. That I can send messages back through. And I've talked to... myself. So I do think it's possible to do something.
[ I don't know if I want it to be true. It'd mean them being alive doesn't save the kids in mine. ]
I can't really tell you anything, 'cause I don't know your world... obviously. And things are different in more ways than just the planets themselves between me and the next person over when it comes to this place.
[ The very rules of reality are different, so even if Wolfwood thinks something is unlikely in his world, that's not exactly true for another place. It gives him a slight headache to try to keep everything in mind. ]
...But it's just -- that's fucked up. You know?
[ And he feels terrible that that's all he can do, or say, about it. He's no god of wisdom nor higher power, he's just a freak of a man. ]
I know about Vash and Knives, and the ships crashing. And that No Man's Land is awful. And that Knives was awful.
There are a lot of details in between that I think I know, but I'm not exactly sure. They could be off, because I didn't get them from any of you three.
He wants to kill off all of mankind off of No Man's Land.
[ Make the name very literal. ]
I've been on his Ark for the last eight months before I showed up here, just... havin' to watch as people get killed. [ I had to kill. It's all because of me. ] He's not human. He's way beyond anythin' I could deal with, I couldn't even fire a single gun at him three years ago. [ Coward -- ]
My only shot was fixing my mistake and tryin' to break Vash out, but that's... all I remember. So I thought I'd died during that.
Vash and Livio tell it different though. Livio's from after I apparently broke Vash out, but Knives is still a danger. Vash's from even after that, and Livio was still alive, and Knives isn't... a problem anymore.
[ So he says, anyway. Their timelines are chaotic. ]
It's like... It would be hard to take comfort in knowing how things work out if the path there is still awful and you're still gonna have to go through it. But at the very least is there any reason those would be different timelines? Or are they just different spots along one timeline?
She told me that it's not -- [ He's really not sure how to phrase it again because parallel/multiple worlds are so beyond his ken, but -- ] -- it's not a guarantee. That if one of us survives, it counts for all three, uh, "versions" of us.
[ He can't keep the stress out of his voice now that he's talking about it. ]
I don't know -- I just can't let it happen. Knives winnin' means death of the entire planet. It means destruction of my orphanage. That can't happen. It means even if Knives isn't a problem anymore from Vash's point, that's not true for me.
[ ... well, this is somewhat counter to what she'd been saying but she finds it a whole lot easier to be tough for someone else's sake. ]
Okay well for now? We're making it out of this. That's a thing everyone is working towards, however it happens. Even if I don't end up liking how it happens. [ team grudges... ]
So assuming we get out of here and you go back home, even if you're back with a Vash or Livio from your own timeline instead of theirs, why would things happen differently? If anything, you're just going into the situation with more information to work with.
[ He's very defeated. He doesn't bother pointing this out because he thinks it's a better mental stance for Alex to take anyway. ]
It's... 'cause in that future, I might be walkin' back to my own death anyway.
[ If their timelines really are completely separate, then... he just doesn't know. Maybe things can be different knowing what he knows, but he can't say with certainty. ]
To be clear, it doesn't mean I'm not gonna try. I don't wanna die, and I can't give up for the kids either.
[ she is trying to problem solve but it's hard when you don't have any fucking control of your situation or the outcome! ]
So... You're kind of stuck hoping that having more info in advance will change things for you. Plus you don't know if the Vash and Livio in your world will have their memories from here, even when you 'catch up' to them.
I've heard some people float the idea of going home with other people? I guess we don't know for sure that something like that would be impossible.
[ And he's trying not to be a pessimist, but with the information he does have, he's not entirely sure he can change that outcome. It is a situation that royally sucks. ]
...I can't leave the planet unless I know every kid and caretaker at the orphanage is safe.
[ He's kind of a horrible person who doesn't give a shit about a majority of the masses, but at the very least, he can't just abandon kids. Even if they don't recognise me, even if they don't know me. ]
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[ To be honest. ]
But he was right when he said there's no point in saying no to something I'm not losing out on.
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... I just—I know that I can't do a lot here, that's all. So I want it to be clear to whoever can what my priorities are.
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How long you been stuck in it? You don't have to answer if you don't want to.
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They gave you a convincing argument?
[ Baby girl ... what's with these time-looping teens? And also Kazuki's something about terrorists, neither Wolfwood nor I are sure what is going on there. ]
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And... Me and Jonas don't remember things exactly the same, so there's that.
[ sometimes you accidentally fill a team with Oops All The Samesies ]
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[ At least, he sure hopes the hell not. There's a brief thought that's more like a deep drone of pure fear but it gets covered up quick. He shakes his head. ]
I want you to be able to break free of that.
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There are these—these intercoms that keep showing up. That I can send messages back through. And I've talked to... myself. So I do think it's possible to do something.
It's confusing. I don't know.
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[ I don't know if I want it to be true. It'd mean them being alive doesn't save the kids in mine. ]
I can't really tell you anything, 'cause I don't know your world... obviously. And things are different in more ways than just the planets themselves between me and the next person over when it comes to this place.
[ The very rules of reality are different, so even if Wolfwood thinks something is unlikely in his world, that's not exactly true for another place. It gives him a slight headache to try to keep everything in mind. ]
...But it's just -- that's fucked up. You know?
[ And he feels terrible that that's all he can do, or say, about it. He's no god of wisdom nor higher power, he's just a freak of a man. ]
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[ haha... but, anyway, ]
... What's different in your world? Across your timelines?
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[ Where does he even begin. ]
How much do you know about my world and what's going on in it again? Between me, Vash, and Livio...
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There are a lot of details in between that I think I know, but I'm not exactly sure. They could be off, because I didn't get them from any of you three.
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[ Make the name very literal. ]
I've been on his Ark for the last eight months before I showed up here, just... havin' to watch as people get killed. [ I had to kill. It's all because of me. ] He's not human. He's way beyond anythin' I could deal with, I couldn't even fire a single gun at him three years ago. [ Coward -- ]
My only shot was fixing my mistake and tryin' to break Vash out, but that's... all I remember. So I thought I'd died during that.
Vash and Livio tell it different though. Livio's from after I apparently broke Vash out, but Knives is still a danger. Vash's from even after that, and Livio was still alive, and Knives isn't... a problem anymore.
[ So he says, anyway. Their timelines are chaotic. ]
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It's like... It would be hard to take comfort in knowing how things work out if the path there is still awful and you're still gonna have to go through it. But at the very least is there any reason those would be different timelines? Or are they just different spots along one timeline?
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She told me that it's not -- [ He's really not sure how to phrase it again because parallel/multiple worlds are so beyond his ken, but -- ] -- it's not a guarantee. That if one of us survives, it counts for all three, uh, "versions" of us.
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[ He can't keep the stress out of his voice now that he's talking about it. ]
I don't know -- I just can't let it happen. Knives winnin' means death of the entire planet. It means destruction of my orphanage. That can't happen. It means even if Knives isn't a problem anymore from Vash's point, that's not true for me.
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Okay well for now? We're making it out of this. That's a thing everyone is working towards, however it happens. Even if I don't end up liking how it happens. [ team grudges... ]
So assuming we get out of here and you go back home, even if you're back with a Vash or Livio from your own timeline instead of theirs, why would things happen differently? If anything, you're just going into the situation with more information to work with.
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It's... 'cause in that future, I might be walkin' back to my own death anyway.
[ If their timelines really are completely separate, then... he just doesn't know. Maybe things can be different knowing what he knows, but he can't say with certainty. ]
To be clear, it doesn't mean I'm not gonna try. I don't wanna die, and I can't give up for the kids either.
[ But it's just very harrowing. ]
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Are you dead in their timelines? I mean, that you remember. Before coming here.
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I mean, I don't remember it, as much as nobody else here seems to, but they both said they saw me.
[ And the stupid pig thing. ]
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So... You're kind of stuck hoping that having more info in advance will change things for you. Plus you don't know if the Vash and Livio in your world will have their memories from here, even when you 'catch up' to them.
I've heard some people float the idea of going home with other people? I guess we don't know for sure that something like that would be impossible.
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[ And he's trying not to be a pessimist, but with the information he does have, he's not entirely sure he can change that outcome. It is a situation that royally sucks. ]
...I can't leave the planet unless I know every kid and caretaker at the orphanage is safe.
[ He's kind of a horrible person who doesn't give a shit about a majority of the masses, but at the very least, he can't just abandon kids. Even if they don't recognise me, even if they don't know me. ]
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And you're the only one that can make sure they're safe? Or—you know from the other two that you're going to keep the orphanage safe?
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