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[camena]

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[honkinbigteeth]

yeah
well this one at least wasn't that bad for me really
but i guess the others got pretty hurt

[camena]

I'm glad it wasn't so bad for you. That's something at least.

Do you mind telling me what happened?

[honkinbigteeth]

sure ok
so i dont really know what happened to kyoko and kazuki
but me and amelia went to this school
and in the thing, we'd been best friends forever
which was really nice, i've always wanted a best friend other than my grandma
and we had a club together it was called baking club and i was the president of it
and rin was there and he was in the club with us
so it was fun to get to see him too
my grandma was there also
but eventually amelia and my grandma and everyone went somewhere else so just me and rin hung out for a while
and then i went back and amelia and kyoko and kazuki showed up hurt

[camena]

As far as excursions go that doesn't sound TOO bad I guess?

[honkinbigteeth]

it wasnt really no
im just sorry that everybody else got hurt

[camena]

But you got to see your grandma and Rin.

When we were on the island there were a couple times like that. Where I'd get bumped back into the past. Too bad it's surrounded by bad stuff.

[honkinbigteeth]

yeah
well

[just a typing indicator for like five minutes.]

to be honest those parts werent that nice either
always
i just feel like
if i explain it no one is going to believe me anyway
so its not worth it

[camena]

?

All the adventures people get sent on are completely insane. Do you remember the egg? Why wouldn't we believe you?

[honkinbigteeth]

i dont know
i guess youre right

[more typing for a long time.]

it was like...
stuff was very very very wrong
but nobody would listen
or even cared
even rin only cared about talking to amelia

[camena]

Well, that doesn't sound like him because I know he'd wanna talk to you.

Wrong like how?

[honkinbigteeth]

its hard to explain
it wasn't real there

[camena]

Those adventures are never totally real. I think.

But Kazuki's been saying the same kind of thing, so... You're feeling the same way?

[honkinbigteeth]

yeah
like it wasnt real but
i was the only one who noticed

[camena]

That seems like it might be extra weird for you.

[honkinbigteeth]

well
i dont know
i guess i understood what was happening better maybe
because ive seen people dealing with similar things
but the thing is being from a story and being not real arent the same
i know you dont mean it like that but
our world and the people in it are real
they have feelings and things they want and they care about other people
this wasnt like that

[camena]

No yeah that makes sense.

I guess I mean more like... idk being treated like something not real? If that makes sense? Or being kind of stuck in a narrative... Or something??

Kazuki said character files were being deleted.

[honkinbigteeth]

[wow she goes quiet for a very long time.]

yeah
i did that

[camena]

Why?

[honkinbigteeth]

its awful but
rin was ignoring me and it was really making me mad
and i was more and more convinced that like
amelia wasnt even real
like remember when rin showed up at trial
it felt like that like there was no way she was a real person
the stuff she was saying sounded so dumb and pointless
and even when i was getting really upset she was acting the same
i didnt think anybody there was other than rin but he kept talking to them anyway
so i wanted them to go away so hed listen to me

[camena]

We know these places mess with people's heads. And everyone made it out okay so. I don't know. I wouldn't dwell on it TOO much you know?

It was like "deleting" them but not actually deleting them.

Did it at least work or what? Did it make him listen to you?

[honkinbigteeth]

no.
he just wound up getting hurt too
dont tell haru ok

[camena]

It wouldn't change how Haru looks at you, you know.

But I won't tell him.