Hopefully, that's the case. I.. would hate for them to still be...
[ trying to possess jonas and her? their friends? it sounds awful, and even if Alex says they didn't get what they wanted, Setsu still looks... worried. ]
At least here there are no ghosts to worry about. [ i hope as they say this, some shadow people are just walking in the far distance. ]
That's a relief... [ and they genuinely do lose a bit of that tension because. they hate to think that's something they're going back to. but if it's done... then good. ]
Mm... could do without the whole erasure but. It is what it is.
[ but in the meantime, they're still stuck in this barrier... fortunately, a memory plays. as a note the name "Kaio" would actually be "Takashi" for ~canon~ sake. ]
[ there are a couple things that stand out here. 'maybe together, we...' the loop starting over. someone named jonas. um. the thing he said, but that's not important.
but mostly sacrificing others for your own goals... i used to be afraid to do things like that.
it's not really judgment; alex is bad at turning her opinion on people when she already likes them. just concern, maybe? she can rationalize it. if you know the loop is coming anyway, eventually it must feel less horrible to make those calls. like watching her friends die throughout the night and losing the empathy to be nice about it because it doesn't feel real anymore.
or... like the ghosts. losing pieces of themselves from being in the loop for too long.
[ the way i had another mem i wanted to show you and forgot i gave you one already :pensive: anyways yeah..... yeah. (jonas voice) as long as there is life in my pants.
Setsu for the most part is... kinda looking off to the side. brows furrowed, expression a bit torn. ashamed? guilty? something there about some of the things they said. they did. just like they had said then, the concept of thinking into it too much... they pushed it away. even now, they focus on the ground.
however, at that mention, they look up at her-- staring, for a moment, before they nod. ]
...Yes. My partner Takashi who had to go through all the time loops with me.
[ someone of great important to them. the fact Setsu was able to do all of this.. was because of them. ]
Mmm... I'm not sure how to describe it. You just.. get a feel for the timing.
[ but the barrier is still in place which means... some memory is in play! though, the daily discussions are removed because they would extend the videos to 4873498 mins since it's back and forth of accusing people, voting who to cold sleep, getting intel from other roles but if you see the top left corner the mention of days changing its because these events are happening after daily discussions.
anyways, memory is here!! and as always, the name for the player is Takashi... hides kaio. ]
...Yeah. If.. Takashi hadn't done what they did, I would have died that day. At the cost of being entrapped permanently in loops, my life was able to be saved. Which might not seem the best of exchanges but... I meant when I said I was happy with what they did.
[ which they have mentioned before, but the memory of it is there. fresh and clear. of a time before Setsu entered the paradox of loops and alternative universes and the like.
they watch Alex a little, because with the combination of their first memory and this one.. there's probably other things she might want to ask. ]
[ she might have already gotten clarification on this but i forget so she does too. she's not sure how to articulate what she's thinking or if it's even worth it, because it really is just her going HUH... at her own world and situation though. ]
...Once erased, there's no bringing them back in that loop.
[ once dead... dead. ] But the loop ends, a new loop starts- and sometimes they're in the later loops, or not. It depends on the settings indicated by the key.
With the key, you can sorta... adjust the settings. It's like changing the settings on your device, or some of the technology here.
[ which they'll hold up their phone briefly as reference. ] With the settings, you can change how many people may show up in the next loop. What kind of roles will be around... things like that. It's to help you gather more information.
[ gnosia does involve some fourthwalling like that it's funny. (setsu voice) hey player, you should have the settings function now. change things to run into new stuff in the loops kay? ]
[ that's a mood. because Setsu has just accepted this being the norm with the key. ]
The whole structure is still a loop. It always starts at the same point: escaping planet Liu-An from the Gnosia that have overrun the planet. It was a bit more static for Takashi in the beginning, I believe. But for the most part, it's almost always randomized.
Admittedly, it's taken me so long to try and understand why the world works that way. That it is what it is but. I couldn't confidently explain it any more than what I know of the details. [ maybe they themselves aren't real.... ]
[ because it would be so exhausting to remember. to do every loop knowing about the loops before and the loops to come. but the thing is, when you don't remember, that sucks too. ]
But—I don't know if I'll ever get to figure things out.
... I'll keep trying. Like, I mean, I guess I already know that I'll keep trying whether I decide that right now or not, but... Whatever. Renewed determination or whatever.
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If the only way for them to escape was to possess you all, wouldn't that mean.. [ "his soul's as quiet as an empty church." ...losing who they are? ]
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[ she shrugs. ]
Maybe it's like being overwritten? Replaced?
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[ trying to possess jonas and her? their friends? it sounds awful, and even if Alex says they didn't get what they wanted, Setsu still looks... worried. ]
At least here there are no ghosts to worry about. [ i hope as they say this, some shadow people are just walking in the far distance. ]
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... But yeah. It's been, uh. Nice. Except for the weekends.
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Mm... could do without the whole erasure but. It is what it is.
[ but in the meantime, they're still stuck in this barrier... fortunately, a memory plays. as a note the name "Kaio" would actually be "Takashi" for ~canon~ sake. ]
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but mostly sacrificing others for your own goals... i used to be afraid to do things like that.
it's not really judgment; alex is bad at turning her opinion on people when she already likes them. just concern, maybe? she can rationalize it. if you know the loop is coming anyway, eventually it must feel less horrible to make those calls. like watching her friends die throughout the night and losing the empathy to be nice about it because it doesn't feel real anymore.
or... like the ghosts. losing pieces of themselves from being in the loop for too long.
anyway she decides to start off easy. ]
So that was the other looper?
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Setsu for the most part is... kinda looking off to the side. brows furrowed, expression a bit torn. ashamed? guilty? something there about some of the things they said. they did. just like they had said then, the concept of thinking into it too much... they pushed it away. even now, they focus on the ground.
however, at that mention, they look up at her-- staring, for a moment, before they nod. ]
...Yes. My partner Takashi who had to go through all the time loops with me.
[ someone of great important to them. the fact Setsu was able to do all of this.. was because of them. ]
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... It must be weird. Actually remembering everything that happened. Knowing the whole time that it's going to start over.
I guess it would make some things easier.
[ like making sacrifices. making calculated choices. but she thinks it would also make things harder. heavier. so much more exhausting. ]
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It makes some of the choices that need to be made easier, I can admit to that.
[ but it.. really is exhausting. the exhaustion shows on their face, as it normally does when they think about everything as a whole. ]
You also start to get a feeling, like you can tell when the loop is about to end.
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... Yeah? Like, what? Dread?
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Mmm... I'm not sure how to describe it. You just.. get a feel for the timing.
[ but the barrier is still in place which means... some memory is in play! though, the daily discussions are removed because they would extend the videos to 4873498 mins since it's back and forth of accusing people, voting who to cold sleep, getting intel from other roles but if you see the top left corner the mention of days changing its because these events are happening after daily discussions.
anyways, memory is here!! and as always, the name for the player is Takashi... hides kaio. ]
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It's like opposites. Being pulled into a loop to be saved...
[ or maybe - something else? alex is thinking, for some reason, after this memory, and not really saying much at first. ]
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[ which they have mentioned before, but the memory of it is there. fresh and clear. of a time before Setsu entered the paradox of loops and alternative universes and the like.
they watch Alex a little, because with the combination of their first memory and this one.. there's probably other things she might want to ask. ]
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[ she might have already gotten clarification on this but i forget so she does too. she's not sure how to articulate what she's thinking or if it's even worth it, because it really is just her going HUH... at her own world and situation though. ]
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[ once dead... dead. ] But the loop ends, a new loop starts- and sometimes they're in the later loops, or not. It depends on the settings indicated by the key.
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[ which they'll hold up their phone briefly as reference. ] With the settings, you can change how many people may show up in the next loop. What kind of roles will be around... things like that. It's to help you gather more information.
[ gnosia does involve some fourthwalling like that it's funny. (setsu voice) hey player, you should have the settings function now. change things to run into new stuff in the loops kay? ]
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Then how do you know, like... what's real? If settings can be changed each loop it's—is that even a loop? Isn't that just a different... reality?
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The whole structure is still a loop. It always starts at the same point: escaping planet Liu-An from the Gnosia that have overrun the planet. It was a bit more static for Takashi in the beginning, I believe. But for the most part, it's almost always randomized.
Admittedly, it's taken me so long to try and understand why the world works that way. That it is what it is but. I couldn't confidently explain it any more than what I know of the details. [ maybe they themselves aren't real.... ]
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They're both two complicated situations. [ a brief pause. ] And when I go back, I'll have nothing but time to figure it out.
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[ because it would be so exhausting to remember. to do every loop knowing about the loops before and the loops to come. but the thing is, when you don't remember, that sucks too. ]
But—I don't know if I'll ever get to figure things out.
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[ there really aren't any upsides to either of them. they frown, worried, and gently touch her arm. ]
With how much you give your all to everything... I think you're capable of it.
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... I'll keep trying. Like, I mean, I guess I already know that I'll keep trying whether I decide that right now or not, but... Whatever. Renewed determination or whatever.