I trust Froggystyle. And I want to trust you. Wanting us to trust Justice with the specific kills on their team is a big ask, though. Not, uh, that it really matters anyway.
... But if it does fall to you, somehow? It's Jonas first. Then Setsu and Kazuki. Okay?
[ He makes a face at that. And fair enough with Justice, he won't try to argue that. ]
They love you as much as you love them.
[ ...But he doesn't tell her to change her mind about this either, or outright refute her, because. He's the exact same when it comes to things like that. He'd rather they revive Vash and Livio over him. ]
I know they do. That's why we're all—that's why this weekend was hard. I know that every team has lost people they care about, so it's not like I think we're alone in that. But we spent a lot of time together before being separated. So... I know they do.
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But this isn't about love. [ It's not just about love. ] Even if I did make it out of this place, I'd still just be stuck in a timeloop. It's not even—I might not even be accomplishing anything in there. So this is pragmatism.
[ she generally avoids talking about. a lot of things. but the times are getting dire, so fuck it. ]
... Like Setsu.
It's a long story and it really doesn't matter. The point is, this isn't just some self-sacrificial thing. It's just working with the reality of the situation.
They told me pretty early on that they were working their ass off to free themselves and a friend from their... loop.
[ It's evident that he still has a hard time wrapping his mind around the concept as his own time moves pretty linearly... well, to his knowledge anyway, but he's certainly been trying. ]
They'd all try to save you too.
[ Jonas would. Speaking of Jonas. ]
...Just you?
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[ He wonders if he should even try to say it, because it's a hopeful stance that not even he himself really believes in, but -- ]
My world's fucking ending. Crazy psychopath going full goddamn seraph of the end. Apocalypse. The planet's dying. People are bein' massacred in the thousands. Maybe not from Vash's, or Livio's point of view anymore, 'cause they come from some time after me and I'm not there to see it, but it's as real as it gets for me. That's why I need them both alive, 'cause they're the only ones that I know can stop it.
...But scholar -- Kaveh, kept bringin' up the idea that he'd want to use his god's wisdom to try to build something and change my reality. That if we're gonna have the resources with all these different dimensions and shit, then why not at least try.
I, uh... don't actually know. I don't remember the loops. I just know that I made a choice and the ghosts say I'm looping and that I have been looping, and... I believe them.
[ Baby girl ... what's with these time-looping teens? And also Kazuki's something about terrorists, neither Wolfwood nor I are sure what is going on there. ]
Me, Vash, and Livio don't remember things the same either. Not that I think... we're in any time loop, things...
[ At least, he sure hopes the hell not. There's a brief thought that's more like a deep drone of pure fear but it gets covered up quick. He shakes his head. ]
There are these—these intercoms that keep showing up. That I can send messages back through. And I've talked to... myself. So I do think it's possible to do something.
[ I don't know if I want it to be true. It'd mean them being alive doesn't save the kids in mine. ]
I can't really tell you anything, 'cause I don't know your world... obviously. And things are different in more ways than just the planets themselves between me and the next person over when it comes to this place.
[ The very rules of reality are different, so even if Wolfwood thinks something is unlikely in his world, that's not exactly true for another place. It gives him a slight headache to try to keep everything in mind. ]
...But it's just -- that's fucked up. You know?
[ And he feels terrible that that's all he can do, or say, about it. He's no god of wisdom nor higher power, he's just a freak of a man. ]
I know about Vash and Knives, and the ships crashing. And that No Man's Land is awful. And that Knives was awful.
There are a lot of details in between that I think I know, but I'm not exactly sure. They could be off, because I didn't get them from any of you three.
He wants to kill off all of mankind off of No Man's Land.
[ Make the name very literal. ]
I've been on his Ark for the last eight months before I showed up here, just... havin' to watch as people get killed. [ I had to kill. It's all because of me. ] He's not human. He's way beyond anythin' I could deal with, I couldn't even fire a single gun at him three years ago. [ Coward -- ]
My only shot was fixing my mistake and tryin' to break Vash out, but that's... all I remember. So I thought I'd died during that.
Vash and Livio tell it different though. Livio's from after I apparently broke Vash out, but Knives is still a danger. Vash's from even after that, and Livio was still alive, and Knives isn't... a problem anymore.
[ So he says, anyway. Their timelines are chaotic. ]
It's like... It would be hard to take comfort in knowing how things work out if the path there is still awful and you're still gonna have to go through it. But at the very least is there any reason those would be different timelines? Or are they just different spots along one timeline?
She told me that it's not -- [ He's really not sure how to phrase it again because parallel/multiple worlds are so beyond his ken, but -- ] -- it's not a guarantee. That if one of us survives, it counts for all three, uh, "versions" of us.
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We might be in third, but you'd have my promise on the chance that it somehow falls to us.
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... But if it does fall to you, somehow? It's Jonas first. Then Setsu and Kazuki. Okay?
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They love you as much as you love them.
[ ...But he doesn't tell her to change her mind about this either, or outright refute her, because. He's the exact same when it comes to things like that. He'd rather they revive Vash and Livio over him. ]
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[ ... ]
But this isn't about love. [ It's not just about love. ] Even if I did make it out of this place, I'd still just be stuck in a timeloop. It's not even—I might not even be accomplishing anything in there. So this is pragmatism.
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Like Setsu...? ]
What's that about...?
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... Like Setsu.
It's a long story and it really doesn't matter. The point is, this isn't just some self-sacrificial thing. It's just working with the reality of the situation.
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[ It's evident that he still has a hard time wrapping his mind around the concept as his own time moves pretty linearly... well, to his knowledge anyway, but he's certainly been trying. ]
They'd all try to save you too.
[ Jonas would. Speaking of Jonas. ]
...Just you?
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And I appreciate that sentiment, really. It's sweet. But it's—what do you think anyone can do? [ that isn't really a question. ]
Yeah. Just me. That's the whole point.
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[ He wonders if he should even try to say it, because it's a hopeful stance that not even he himself really believes in, but -- ]
My world's fucking ending. Crazy psychopath going full goddamn seraph of the end. Apocalypse. The planet's dying. People are bein' massacred in the thousands. Maybe not from Vash's, or Livio's point of view anymore, 'cause they come from some time after me and I'm not there to see it, but it's as real as it gets for me. That's why I need them both alive, 'cause they're the only ones that I know can stop it.
...But scholar -- Kaveh, kept bringin' up the idea that he'd want to use his god's wisdom to try to build something and change my reality. That if we're gonna have the resources with all these different dimensions and shit, then why not at least try.
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[ To be honest. ]
But he was right when he said there's no point in saying no to something I'm not losing out on.
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... I just—I know that I can't do a lot here, that's all. So I want it to be clear to whoever can what my priorities are.
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How long you been stuck in it? You don't have to answer if you don't want to.
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They gave you a convincing argument?
[ Baby girl ... what's with these time-looping teens? And also Kazuki's something about terrorists, neither Wolfwood nor I are sure what is going on there. ]
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And... Me and Jonas don't remember things exactly the same, so there's that.
[ sometimes you accidentally fill a team with Oops All The Samesies ]
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[ At least, he sure hopes the hell not. There's a brief thought that's more like a deep drone of pure fear but it gets covered up quick. He shakes his head. ]
I want you to be able to break free of that.
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There are these—these intercoms that keep showing up. That I can send messages back through. And I've talked to... myself. So I do think it's possible to do something.
It's confusing. I don't know.
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[ I don't know if I want it to be true. It'd mean them being alive doesn't save the kids in mine. ]
I can't really tell you anything, 'cause I don't know your world... obviously. And things are different in more ways than just the planets themselves between me and the next person over when it comes to this place.
[ The very rules of reality are different, so even if Wolfwood thinks something is unlikely in his world, that's not exactly true for another place. It gives him a slight headache to try to keep everything in mind. ]
...But it's just -- that's fucked up. You know?
[ And he feels terrible that that's all he can do, or say, about it. He's no god of wisdom nor higher power, he's just a freak of a man. ]
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[ haha... but, anyway, ]
... What's different in your world? Across your timelines?
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[ Where does he even begin. ]
How much do you know about my world and what's going on in it again? Between me, Vash, and Livio...
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There are a lot of details in between that I think I know, but I'm not exactly sure. They could be off, because I didn't get them from any of you three.
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[ Make the name very literal. ]
I've been on his Ark for the last eight months before I showed up here, just... havin' to watch as people get killed. [ I had to kill. It's all because of me. ] He's not human. He's way beyond anythin' I could deal with, I couldn't even fire a single gun at him three years ago. [ Coward -- ]
My only shot was fixing my mistake and tryin' to break Vash out, but that's... all I remember. So I thought I'd died during that.
Vash and Livio tell it different though. Livio's from after I apparently broke Vash out, but Knives is still a danger. Vash's from even after that, and Livio was still alive, and Knives isn't... a problem anymore.
[ So he says, anyway. Their timelines are chaotic. ]
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It's like... It would be hard to take comfort in knowing how things work out if the path there is still awful and you're still gonna have to go through it. But at the very least is there any reason those would be different timelines? Or are they just different spots along one timeline?
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She told me that it's not -- [ He's really not sure how to phrase it again because parallel/multiple worlds are so beyond his ken, but -- ] -- it's not a guarantee. That if one of us survives, it counts for all three, uh, "versions" of us.
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